Yesterday was my husband’s Birthday. We drove to the city to see our kids and spend his special day with them.
We drove home after a fantastic day, discussing past birthdays and remembering special times. We were talking about a time his mom forgot his Birthday. His mom is older, and it just slipped her mind. She didn’t do it intentionally; just part of getting older for her.
I was immediately taken back to a time in my life when I sat and waited for my mom to call, but it never came.
My Birthday had never been a happy day for most of my adult life. I have spent most of my adult life waiting for a call on my Birthday from the one person I thought should be excited for me and want to celebrate what I thought should feel like a special day to her.
But that day just didn’t come.
All day I thought about how grateful I am to celebrate with my husband on his special day. What a blessing he is, and I am grateful...
I have been getting all caught up in the things of the world recently. It's like shit is just hitting the fan all at the same time.
As I watched things go down, I was caught up in the gloom and doom that everyone seemed to be predicting.
I also felt that I was stuck. And honestly, I was feeling stuck in my business, life, relationships, and almost every part of my life.
It has been so cold, and now it's April, and we still have lots of snow on the ground. It's been a record year for snow here in Utah, and It is starting to take a toll on my mental capacities.
As I contemplated the things going on, both in the outside world and inside myself, I was reminded that it was time for deep healing.
So that's what I started doing. I wanted out of the gloom and doom, so to healing meditations I went.
Now for me, I am used to doing this work, so I know where to go. Most can not be open enough with themselves to do...